Thursday, June 17, 2010

Thoughts of a Thursday

* I've made it to the second trimester! By some definitions, anyway. Others say it's not til next week. Either way, I've made it past 12 weeks, when the chances for miscarriage drop to nigh-miniscule.

* I'm trying to make myself believe that I really am pregnant, and that I really will be having a baby at the end of this year. I'm oddly detached still. With the Infanta I was so excited, so in love with my baby; this time, while I want it so much (I think ;) ), my innocence is lost and I'm a lot more reserved about bonding. I'm really looking forward to my next appointment, and the reassurance of hearing the heartbeat. I really want to feel movement... but it's too soon for that.

* The Infanta is 2. How did that happen?! She's still very sweet, bright, and usually well-behaved, but she does throw a fit every now and then. I find that the fits happen less if I give her some warning about a change that's going to happen - we're leaving the park, it's time to get dressed, time for bed, etc. That way she gets to process her reaction and is often leading the way by the time it's actually time to go! I need to remember her transition process more often; it's how I work, after all.

* Well, we're still nursing. Sort of. The Infanta has begun asking to nurse at times that we haven't at nursed in months, and the bedtime nursing is often either hard-fought (on my part) or a delay tactic (on hers). Between her lazy toddler latch and my pregnancy-sore breasts, as well as my bare trickle of a supply, nursing is very painful for me and pretty unsatisfying for her. I'm very close to calling it quits for good, but I can't quite bring myself to yet. I'm pretty sure I don't want to tandem nurse (I don't anymore, anyway), but I'm just not quite there on stopping with my darling girl.

3 comments:

existere said...

Huge happy vibes to you for getting outta the dreaded first trimester. And good vibes to your boobs, too. Hopefully you'll 'know' when the time is right to stop and feel okay about it, and until then be gentle with yourself! *hug*

caramama said...

Congrats for 2nd trimester!

My daughter needs extra time for transitions, and I'm so used to it now that I don't even think about it as I call out 5 minute, 2 minute, and 1 minute warnings. It's really helped her SO much.

I've got nothing for the nursing/weaning. I had hoped to keep nursing while pregnant, but had to wean in order to do fertility treatments. I can only imagine how uncomfortable nursing would be when pregnant!

Batty said...

Yay, second trimester! Good for you and the baby!
I don't have kids, so no advice on the nursing...